| Tuesday, February 21st, 2006 |
| 10:05 pm |
life is back to shit!!! dumb fucking coke heads talk shit!!!!! i really could give a goddamn less if some people just fucking DIED!!!! i mean the world would be a better placce without them :) :) :) :) and then you "friends" talk shit too yea well i am not letting that shit happen nemore if you talk shit THE FUCK YOU YOU DESERVE TO DIE A SLOW PAINFULL DEATH and if you say you are my friend and talk shit then i will not forgive you litle childish ass and you can fucking rot in hell!! :)))))))))) Current Mood:  pissed offCurrent Music: CUNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| Saturday, February 18th, 2006 |
| 3:13 pm |
wow
So the thusspoke show went fucking great last night we tore some shit up and played our asses off now lets just hope we can keep it that way for a while! i think if we keep playing like that and writing more consistant songs then we will blow the fuck up but who knows man! anyways this weekend is going good i hope it stays that way!! but yea me and brian are starting to get better with talking to eachother!That fucking kid means the world to me and i seriously dont know what i would do without him! I would take a bullet for that kid, and i would definatly do nething for him. He is my bestfriend, my brother , and my family!!! Steve moved in with us now too that kid is cool as shit he is now part of our little family also we will all take care of each other! so yea i am outie peace Current Mood:  contentCurrent Music: helicopters |
| Tuesday, February 14th, 2006 |
| 11:05 pm |
ok so.......
I HATE MY LIFENAD I SERIOUSLY HATE A LOT OF PEOPLE RIGHT NOW SO I HOPE THAT THE PEOPLE WHO ARE ON MY BADSIDE DONT TALK TO ME BECAUSE GODDAMN THEY ARE GONNA WISH THEY NEVER TALKED TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK THIS DAY AND FUCK EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES YOU!@ Current Mood: pissed offCurrent Music: fuck you cunt! |
| 12:33 pm |
v day
Well today is going ok ao far i went to the bank this morning and opened up a new checking account "excitment" and i got a free gift "more excitment" then i came to work where i am at now and me and joey are sitting around doing jack shit bored out of our faces! this whole thusspoke thing is fucking killing me inside becuase of love this band and it means a lot to me but i jsut cant take zack anymore and it is gonna make me quit the band which i dont want to do but i am tired of looking stupid just becuase he sucks ass hole at drums!!!! i think that thusspoke has so much potential to be the best band in charlotte but not wiht the attitude that they have right now!! i dont know once again maybe i should just give up!! buy anyways i hope the rest of the day goes well FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOUR HOLIDAY! Current Mood: creativeCurrent Music: ass cunt faced whore |
| Sunday, February 12th, 2006 |
| 6:18 pm |
BLAH
So right now i just feel very blank i kinda feel like puking right now! me and steve are atching donnie darko which is a fucking amazing movie! but i dont know i kepe getting this sick feeling in my stomach? like i am so fucking alone that is makes me sick! and my friends arent helping because they all pretty much have good things happening to them right now and it kinda seems like i am just getting the shaft!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kill me now! Current Mood:  confusedCurrent Music: the mars volta "the widow" |
| 12:58 am |
hmmmm
Damn i am soo fucking un happy right now!!!! It seems like my life isnt going to get any better besides the fact that i have like the radest job in the world right now and i am really happy about that but goddamn i am alone! I so desperatly want to find then perfect girl for me! I want to find the girl who i cant find nething wrong with even if i am looking for them!! I want someone who has the same interests as me! I Want someone who i can tell nething! "good or bad" I want someone who is same!! GOD DAMN BEING ALONE IS THE WORST!!!!!! Current Mood:  numbCurrent Music: GlassJaw!!!!!!! "lovebites and razorlines" |
| Saturday, February 11th, 2006 |
| 1:40 pm |
ok so.........
Well i decided not to settle because i knew if i settled for her i was going to hurt the shit out of her feelings and as much as some people might think i am an asshole well guesss what fuck faces i am not that much of an asshole! "fucking wiht peoples emotions is fucked up" so yea i broke things off wiht the girl i mean she is really upset but what the hell am i supposed to do like im not going to persue somthing that i dont really want to persue that owuld also be fucked up!! so now it is back to me having a shity ass v day which i think is coming up!!! I HATE VALENTINES DAY WITH A PASSION!! I am always alone or with my friends andthere girlfriends and i always have the most shity day ever so hopefully this year wont be so bad but i can almost guarentee it will be :) anyways I AM SO GODDAMN BLAHHHH I DONT KNOW WAHT TO DO RIGHT NOW SO BYE!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood:  blahCurrent Music: the helicopters |
| Thursday, February 9th, 2006 |
| 5:10 pm |
crazy night
Last night was probably one of the worst nights of this year!!!! all i was dealing wiht was a crying ass girl all night!!!!! i dont know what the hell is worng wiht me id o some dumb fucking shit! i really just wanna move the fuck away and jsut damn start ALL OVER and meet all new people and just damn leave this mother fucker! Right now i am jsut setteling for some girl who i am not even completly happy wiht but i am settleing for it anyway i mean i am happy kinda she is cool as fuck and cute as shit but i mean its not like she is the best or w/e but i dont know who cares i guess everything will be alright maybe!!!!!! Current Mood: aggravatedCurrent Music: acid bath "dead girl" |
| Tuesday, February 7th, 2006 |
| 6:08 pm |
ah!
work is BORING AS FUCK TODAY!!!!!!!!!!! but one funny ass thing is that sketchy steve came up to my shop today to get a tattoo and well he is definatly getting a fetus wiht a coat hanger in its head done on his forearm!! it is great so that made my day happy! Well i need to find more things to do in life man i have too much time on my hands and i keep thinking about shit all day that i shouldnt be thinking about! I seriously think that i am gonna be depressed and lonely for the rest of my goddamn life!!!! Another thing that is bugging the shit out of me is zack"thusspoke" he is a little fucking dick face and he doesnt try when he plays so it ends up making us sound like shit! it is fucking embaraasing as hell to play shows with thusspoke when zack is playing drums! I am definatly gonna quit thusspoke if shit keeps going the way it is going because we havent played a good show since like goddamn the first show i played with them! So on a different note! I keep getting involved wiht these girls who like i mean i like them theyare rad as fuck and they make me happy "for a little while" then I begin to be uninterested in them" and i am definatly not trying to but they get boreing as fuck or they turn into the complete oposite of what they were when i met them and started to like them! i want to find someone who makes me happy everyday of my life, and i know that sounds really selfish but fuck dudei want to make her smile everyday of her life also! I dont know dude everyone has been telling me since like the goddamn ninth grade man taddeo just wait and it will happen i swear and well it hasnt and i am begging to think that it never will happen but then again maybe it will! Everynight i lay in bed and think to myself "What is wrong with me? and i that unattractive? Do i say the wrong things? Do I move to fast with them "not sexually"? Do i not have enough money to make a girl happy? just fuck dude what is wrong with me? do any of you guys know? Current Mood: depressedCurrent Music: agents of oblivion "endsmouth" |
| Sunday, February 5th, 2006 |
| 4:51 pm |
wilmington
So i am in wilmington!! ilove it here and i never want to go home! but i have to.So i dont think anyone wants me to give this girl a second chance and to tell you the truth i dont really want to either but i just really want someone like soooooooooooooooo bad! not just anyone though i want someone who i can laugh with and have fun with and someone who i can tell nehting that is on my mind!I want someone who i cant look at wihtout smiling and someone who i cant talk to wihtout staring into her eyes for 10 minutes looking like a retard! blah life its a bitch! Current Mood: blahCurrent Music: nehamia |
| Saturday, February 4th, 2006 |
| 3:37 pm |
weekends
well! me and gobble are going to wilmington tonight! should be a very drunken weekend for me! Maybe this weekend will help me take my mind off of somthings, and make me feel a little bit better! I am kinda in between on a situation that is going on now! This girl who has previously fucked me over is ALL ABOUT ME NOW! and i dont know what to do like i dont know wheather or not to trust her and roll with it and persue somthing or to just leave it alone! as much as i want a relationship and want to persue somthing with someone i still kinda wanna wait because i really want to make sure that the next person i get involved with is really the one i want because i am tired of games!!!!!! who knows man i am fucked up :)We have a show tonight to hopefully that will go well we are playing with robinson and they are super good! Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: cunt blast! |
| Thursday, February 2nd, 2006 |
| 2:57 am |
i leave my self open for girls to hurt me wayyy to much! Current Mood: blankCurrent Music: shit cunt |
| Wednesday, February 1st, 2006 |
| 5:58 pm |
ha
children children!!!!!! I have fallen deep in love with the sky............... Current Mood: depressedCurrent Music: HIM!!! |
| 1:28 pm |
holy shit cunt fuck!!!
OK SO TODAY IS SUCKING FUCKING ENORMOUS COCK RIGHT NOW I GOT A MESSAGE ON MYSPACE FROM BRITTANY TODAY AND IT WAS PROBABLY ONE OF THE FUNNIEST THINGS I HAVE EVER READ IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! SERIOUSLY THIS FUCKING DUMB CUNT BAG HONESTLY WANTS ME TO BE LIKE"OOOOOOO IT IS OK THAT YOU FUCKED AROUND WITH MY HEAD. I WOULD LOVE TO BE YOUR FRIEND" FUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKK NO BITCH YOU JUST GODDAMN MADE A FUCKING ENEMY THAT ONE DAY YOU WILL SERIOUSLY REGRET MAKING!!!! YA KNOW WHY BECUASE I AM A FUCKING DICK FACE~~~~i honestly dont know what the fuck is wrong with me this is the second time in like a month that i have just gotten my little heart kicked in the fucking dirt!!!! my head is gonna goddamn expload! KARMA MOTHER FUCKERS THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY!!!!!! ONE DAY THE SHIT WILL COME BACK ON YOU!"hopefully you will trip and fall down some stairs and like ehh maybe break and arm or leg orsomeshit. like bad like thebone sticking out of the skin" and then you can think hmmmmmm maybe i shouldnt have been a fucking cunt to taddeo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well all his should make for an pretty good show on saturday which should be ok if we fucking practice before then whcih i doubt will happen! anyways i am outie!! Current Mood: crushedCurrent Music: acid bath "cassie eats cockroaches" |
| 12:44 am |
wow guys
So once again taddeo gets fucking fucked over by a girl!!!! goddamn boys it never ends does it!!!! it is pretty funny how one second a girl can make you feel like a million dollars and the next second she can make you feel like a goddman bag of assholes!!!!!!!!! wwoooooowhoooooooooooooo life is great huh! Wow i really feel like dying right now!!! and NO BRITNEY NOT BECAUSE OF YOU YOU LITTLE BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is because of everything in general THE WORLD!!!!! YOU YOUR FRIENDS YOUR MOTHER AND THE REST OF YOU GODDAM FAMILYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! i hope everyone likes this one :) Current Mood: angryCurrent Music: CUNT |
| Monday, January 30th, 2006 |
| 4:38 am |
damn
Well i had a feeling this would happen! so brittany comes over today and things just kinda seemed weird i mean i still am crazy about her but she didnt really seem too interested!!!!! DAMN WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? So yea my night basically consisted of me and gobble and eric going to ishi's and tearing that place up!!!!! and then riding around in charlotte bullshitting telling jokes for a few hours! it was still kinda fun though. I am still undecide what i am gonna do about music yet. Like some days i jsut wanna give up and say fuck it i quit and never play music again and then other days i wanna keep pushing on strugling my ass off to find a band that actually does stuff!! hopefully thusspoke will start busting peoples skulls here soon again! we just need to fucking schedule shit a lot better! anyways it is off to bed a 4 in the morning becuase my nigga ass gotsta WORK "somthin you might not ner know nuttin bout" stay TRILL! "thats slang fool" Current Mood: depressedCurrent Music: acid bath "dead girl" |
| Sunday, January 29th, 2006 |
| 4:12 am |
waffle house again nigga!
Well me and brian got smashed a little bit tonight off the wild turkey! and then me and gobble did the usual "went to the waffle house on lane st" so tonight wasnt all that bad! but i think i am gonna go nutz wiht my shity ass finacial situation! somtimes i hate a lot of my friends who are really spoiled even though like i guess they cant help it or w/e because their parents do it but o well anyways me and gobble is off to bed for tonight!!!! britney is coming over in the morning!!! COT DAMN I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED TO SEE HER!!!! Current Mood:  anxiousCurrent Music: your fucking face |
| Saturday, January 28th, 2006 |
| 4:49 am |
grrr
god damn i hate life right now!!!! why does weird shit always happen to me things start going good for me in my life and the there is always a curve ball! In dreams i adore her what light she shines upon us her skin is soft her lips are red twinkle twinkle... she wore red velvet we danced together in the towns square hands clasped tightly together we watched the world die! easy with the words you speak they can kill! thusspoke! "twinkle twinkle little cunt" Current Mood: confusedCurrent Music: dying fetus "raped on the alter" |
| Friday, January 27th, 2006 |
| 6:06 pm |
fuck me in the ass
i think i am gonna DIE!!!!!!!!!! i really hate life some fucking times!!! Current Mood:  weirdCurrent Music: cattle decapitation |
| 3:20 am |
fuck
Well zack attack came over and made me and brians desktop all cool and spiffy looking! thats right i said spiffy mother fuckers! but yea zack came over nad me him, brian, and lil cole cole all chilled for a litttle bit....Me and gobble went to waffle house at like 1 in the morning to eat and talk about things that were bothering us! today was just a all around bad day! some really good friends kina backstabbed me so it didnt make me too happy! but on the other hand BRITNEY makes me really happy, and once again i so hope things go well between britney and i because i really like her she is an awsome chick! and all that i look forward to everyday is talking to her! we are supposed to hang out on sunday so i am super excited about that it should be fucking rad as hell!!! well it is off too bed!!!!!!!! i cant wait to talk to her! Current Mood:  groggyCurrent Music: all shall perish |
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